speed brain
will do anything to not pay attention
i don’t know what i’m doing. just order toast.
laying on the beach singing to myself, strumming guitar—magic
if you’re trying to break a habit of not focusing on things, then multitasking is not conducive
then once your eyes catch something, *that’s* the thing you watch every detail of
the magic is to keep writing. keep creating. building the habit of producing. but i’m sick of the same words, the same phrases. it’s okay, they will change as you change and at the right time…my posture is really bad
there is no imaginary deadline. i can watch the letters form on the page. i can feel my hand strain to form the squigglies that make up letters. i can observe how much neater my handwriting is when i slow down. i can take my time to formulate thoughts. i can practice writing the letters of mine that i don’t like. “k” and “f”
bring your awareness to a completion point of a task. that’s where your autopilot often takes over. even while writing these letters, the stroke starts out slow and ends with a flick.
now i’ve relaxed my arm and hand but maintained the slow speed. this way, i never stop writing because my brain has a chance to come up with new thoughts well before the last one is on the page. except for just now. blank.
i never thought that one could actually think faster by being slower.
again i’m wondering when i’m going to move on to the next thing and what that next thing will be. i am craving speed! completion! accomplishment! satisfaction! even if just a scratched itch. stop yourself if your vision blurs. the speed brain will do anything to not pay attention.
i am constantly wondering what others are thinking about my seemingly odd behavior. it is very distracting to my focus. i question whether i should be doing what i’m doing.
is my nose really that greasy?
