Still Healing

A poem.

Annie Bell
Feb 3 · 2 min read
Photo and artwork by the author, Annie Bell.

I used to be crippled by my need to please.
I think I was always that way.
But, I am unsure how I developed that disease.

I used to see myself as unimportant.
I think I was always that way.
But, I am unsure why I held a belief so mordant.

I used to be afraid to speak up.
I think I was always that way,
But, I am unsure why my voice did not measure up.

I used to feel an inch tall.
I did not always feel that way.
Someone I trusted convinced me that I was small.

I used to feel useless.
I did not always feel that way.
Someone I let in turned out to be ruthless.

I used to feel selfish.
I did not always feel that way.
Someone contorted my self-image to be hellish.

I was lost without my own reflection.
I will not live that way.
Now, I am no one else’s projection.

I was an easy target to attack.
I will not live that way.
Now, I fight back.

I was numb to survive the pain.
I will not live that way.
Now, I feel my heartbeat and my playful soul reigns!

I am breathing in the fresh air.
And, I resolve to live a life
Shamelessly robust with self-care.

I am smiling again.
And I resolve to live a life
Guided by my wisdom within.

I am still healing.
But, I resolve to live a life
That is worth feeling.

By Annie Bell
Poem began many months ago and finished 2/1/20

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I empower women through my writing & art. • I am shamelessly, imperfectly & wholeheartedly me • Instagram: @wholeheartedempire

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