yearning. a topic so widespread on social media that some people have even romanticized it.

but is yearning only about the love you lost? about someone you once planned on marrying? someone you once considered your whole life?

scrolling through TikTok, most yearning posts i see are about their partner who once they thought were their “lifetime partner,” only to end up as someone they painfully miss instead. isn’t it painful? to lose someone and continue yearning for them.

yearning is an endless pain. a knife that keeps pushing through your heart. sometimes, yearning feels like choosing to hurt yourself over and over again. but i hope that, someday, people learn to yearn for healing instead. to have the courage to leave it all behind. to “leave the restaurant,” as Gen Z calls it — walking away from someone even when it hurts.

for me, yearning is not only about a person you lost. because i also yearn for a skill that once belonged to me.

some people yearn to forget, but in my case, i yearn to regain. to hold that skill again. to write again. to freely express myself through words the way i used to.

i guess yearning comes in different forms. different perspectives. different wounds.

what about you? what are you yearning for? why are you yearning? is it to forget… or to regain?