Is it the rage you feel when you look at someone?

Or the resentment you carry within you?

Is it the ache you feel when you see them happy?

Or the frustration of not feeling happy yourself?

Is it the sense of loss you hold,

Or the gain you watch them enjoy?

Is it all of it —

Something beyond your control,

Something you wish you never had,

Yet it consumes you.

#not_a_sin

This piece appears in the anthology “Nazariya — A Perspective”.

With touch of uncertainty, my daily voyage commence.

Waves of memories ponder my mind,

And echo my ear with a thousand hymns.

And I question myself,

To which I never found an answer.

Is this the life I always desired?

A soft utter, surface the Chaos ,

Which tells me that I am the pirate of my own ship,

And drown me with the waves,

And sink me to the ocean bed.

With no light there,

I see within myself the broken ship.

#a_void

This piece appears in the anthology “Nazariya — A Perspective”.

Do that —

It never ends.

I am in a barren land, with no one to correct me.

So whom do I fear?

Trapped!

Trapped are my thoughts

inside the bars of society.

With no guard there,

I still follow the rules!

Conditioning?

What is that?

I eat, I sleep, I talk, I breathe, and I live.

I have become one with it.

“Go with the flow,” they said.

Wrecked ship is all beneath me.

Floating debris pollutes the water.

Clouded!

Clouded is the sky,

filled with rain,

waiting to reach its threshold

and break the chain!

Athena, I become —

for the people around,

for the people that change.

But why do I not change?

I play and play

the forbidden game,

with guilt in my heart

that leaks through a hole.

#caged_mind

This piece appears in the anthology “Nazariya — A Perspective”.

I wrap my hands around me.

Gazing at the night sky, I behold -

I often wonder what it holds.

With grit and grace,

I spot a change.

Frozen limbs perfect no pain,

I breathe and breathe the change.

I hop and drop the whining game

Into the shadow of the perfect shame.

To sabotage the grieving soul

I play the drums of fame.

#personality

This piece appears in the anthology “Nazariya — A Perspective”.