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Annabel ogechi okpechi — Thu, 14 May 2026 18:48:59 GMT

It’s another day ,two days of him not reaching out ..Am I overreacting?

I guess not …

If you care about someone ,you reach out right ?

Maybe this was just as glaring to everyone else except me ..

Was it bad for me to visit ?I slept hard when the pills knocked me off on Tuesday ..on Wednesday it was worse ..Maybe it was just a word that slipped out ,maybe it meant something ,what did I miss ?

Were my intentions not pure enough ,i can’t help but wonder ..

He said I need attention and he can’t give me that ..That word hurt more than anything else ..My heart broke ..I cried ,not out of stupidity but out of pain ..I felt stupid ,I felt pained ,I wiped my eyes dry and went to his shop ..That Made me realize something ..I never meant anything ..it cut deep ..throughout our journey out ,my heart bled ,I could only force a fake smile ,I only nodded to act like I was alright ..No I wasn’t ..I was dying inside ..I wanted to go back to him and see his face ..I wanted to know if I meant anything at all ..I went back ..it was blank ..I ask myself ..Did I really mean nothing to him ..This is a guy I could give an arm and leg for ..

Funny thing is ..for each time I pray ..it’s just me asking God to bless him and make it work ..was it bad ..

Well..hurting for someone that doesn’t want you will go away right ?

I hope it does …

Bellamonett’s feelings

My Addiction

Annabel ogechi okpechi — Sat, 09 May 2026 03:16:22 GMT

I met you when I no longer wanted to meet anyone and in the end ,you were the one who received a part of me no one else could have ..

I have grown tired of temporary people ,of feelings that disappear,so I stopped searching ,I stopped expecting ,stopped believing someone could still reach me ..I soaked myself in addiction and found you a better addiction ,Yes you call me “your bad habit “ but I call you “my addiction “

You came quietly ,unexpectedly ..That first day I saw you ..My heart moved in a way I never felt ..It seemed it said the word “home “

That feeling broke every work I had fearfully built..

I gave you pieces of myself I thought I buried forever ..

Some people enter your lives like passing season while someone arrive and become a place inside you ,they make their home in your heart ..

Bellamonetts feelings

Life of a loner

Annabel ogechi okpechi — Fri, 19 Sep 2025 02:28:19 GMT

It’s a hidden story of grieve ,a beclouding sense of loneliness ,a state of confusion .Affections without a direction .They say when you have nobody ,you’re truly alone ,but even when you have people ,you’re still alone .Trust me when I say life hits you at your deepest and that’s the quick realization that loneliness kills faster than a disease .Rebranding your energy is mostly futile if that vacuum is never filled .Displaced emotions often to the wrong person may make you feel mentally unstable .How do I manage such weakness ,does it ever have an end ,will my smile come over time ,will this sudden overwhelming feeling end .Looking back ,it’s seems am stagnant ,my mates happily married ,abroad with family while some with thriving businesses ,fully balanced and me a single loner still perching ..It’s a long day ,just maybe I’ll get it right someday .That someday could be soon ..I wouldn’t know but I wouldn’t want to bring down my hopes ..

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Forsaken world

Annabel ogechi okpechi — Tue, 24 Jun 2025 19:06:03 GMT

It’s a whole new world ,finding out you’re all alone ,no friends ,no parents ,just you ,your puff and your sips here and there ..Finding out you got to face the world alone ,you still have to find a man you can cohabit with ..Seems like an endless search but what if the pressure is much ?

How about liking someone and just maybe your physique doesn’t tickle his fancy ,or maybe his first day of seeing you changes it all ..The likeness is there but what if it’s not been reciprocated ..Just all alone sitting and thinking out loud ..Seems like the right path you took is now termed wrong ..More like all the hustle and determination is now a waste ..What happens when you’re being sexualized even when you’re good at what you do ..It’s sad endless rant ..But what do you do ..Your only companion is your writing pad ..Just maybe thinks could turn around a bit ..

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A sad reminisce

Annabel ogechi okpechi — Fri, 25 Apr 2025 21:20:22 GMT

It’s a sad morning ,one which her face comes to limelight ,when I see the lines her face bore ,the pains each lines represented ,the sadness I felt with each tear falling down her cheeks ,the pains of knowing I was going to lose her in minutes or maybe hours ..The sad look she gave me silently saying goodbye in her heart ..Each look became tormenting by the second ,I couldn’t bring myself to remember what it felt like to see her happy ,it was one sad moment my heart crashed ,a peek at her face made me know I was all alone ,she was going and I couldn’t do anything to stop her ,my tears welled up in my eyes like I was going to join her too ,.I felt the sharp pains if losing her ,I could literally give an arm to have her back .it all came back ,how do I see her one last time ,tell her how I miss her ,how I was becoming the girl she wanted ,how her voice echoed all night ,how I went to her room and wish I could hear her voice ,where did I go wrong ,maybe I should have gone deeper ,maybe she would have stayed …It’s all one sad tale I can’t erase from my heart ,.But maybe I’ll see her soon and let her know I miss her each passing day

My forever was given a meaning

Annabel ogechi okpechi — Sat, 30 Nov 2024 20:41:42 GMT

As I lay beside him I couldn’t help but think of how we came this far ,I felt at peace ,I felt love never existed but being close to him made me feel at peace with my soul ..

I had yearned for this love ,what I could pass unto my offspring’s ,I had wanted them to have his smile ,I wanted them to have his small eyes ,I wanted them to have his forehead ,it was a prayer I had spent sleepless nights asking for ,it seemed they were unanswered but maybe they were answered after all ,maybe I ccouldn’t see It coming to pass ..I felt loving was all about submitting to his total will and not having mine at all …

Love taught me to be better for myself ,I wanted to be the better version of me if not the best ,I worked towards that ,he made me feel complete in ways I never expected ,he made me look at his picture and smile like a child ,that was all I wanted .

As I held onto his hands I prayed they were going to be the hands I’ll hold till I breath my last …

He granted my wish ,he gave my love a name ,he changed my perception about love and thus my forever found a meaning ..

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Dumb thoughts

Annabel ogechi okpechi — Sat, 30 Nov 2024 20:14:11 GMT

Spiritism is one woke element of diversity That forever defines our life concepts.. looking back to what we felt was our past life has taken a toll on one out of so many without baiting an eyelid ..Our peace is being displaced in our journey to unknown ..The strangers that beckon to us don’t seem like they have the interest of receiving us ..Our lips quaver at the sound of the bells ,our hands are bound ,our feet are bound as well but not so well ..Where are we sojourning to ?

Why does it seem like we can’t relate with the ones close to us ,are those tears they are shedding ,I cannot help but ponder but the pains are sharp and the chains aren’t leaving ,I should have been happy I’m leaving but maybe happiness is far from me …

I long for the joy I have sought all my life ,shouldn’t I walk freely or is it the lake of fire am headed ,maybe not …

My heart pounds faster but I must follow my sojourner ,the tears don’t seem to come out but maybe we might meet at the other end ..

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Lost hope

Annabel ogechi okpechi — Fri, 29 Nov 2024 23:54:39 GMT

How do we say we have hope when all our emotions are dashed away ..Does our predicament depict us as helpless ?shouldn’t Gods time be the best or isn’t it Gods time ?shouldn’t we receive what we ask for ?shouldn’t we find what we seek ?

Are our heart desires not meant to be granted ? shouldn’t brightness be at the end of our tunnel ? shouldn’t our heart leap for joy ? shouldn’t our eyes shed tears of joy ? our heart yearns for what will soothe our soul or isn’t it yet time to find that which will gladden our heart .

My face has forgotten that bright smile ,My lips has squeezed to that of a sadist ,my smiles are now displaced with frowns ,my burden becomes heavier by the day ,my tears flow freely ,my mind is dead from wanting the least ,my lips are dry from all the tears I shed ,my arms are wrinkled with claps of praises ,it seems it falls on deaf ears ..Maybe one day I’ll be lucky if he deems me fit to regain hope ..My hope is lost ,my helplessness is worse than that of Jabez but he had a reason to smile …My pains make me weary by the day ,my voice is weak and the echoes fade by the day ,my mind is unsettled and full of worries ,

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Emotionless

Annabel ogechi okpechi — Sat, 23 Nov 2024 19:54:02 GMT

Are our emotions not meant to be expressed ,shouldn’t our tears flow freely ,shouldn’t our pains leave indelible marks that would remind us of how anguished we were ,shouldn’t our heart be broken from the heartbreak we have felt over time ,shouldn’t the pictures remind us of the memories we had ,shouldn’t their videos send cold shivers down our spine ,shouldn’t their smiles remind us of how much we miss them ,how much they would have stuck out their neck for us ,their fervent prayers that intercede on our behalf ,their giggles that remind us that they loved us till death ,their aggression that made us realize we fucked up ,years and counting and all I could think of is seeing their smile one last time ,holding their hands and kissing their forehead ,telling them of my struggles and how their fave misses them ,assuring them I was going to get better ,telling them I found love in the weirdest of all places listening to them tease me and eavesdrop on my calls ,it’s one hell of a long time but memories don’t fade ,do they ?They are evergreen and their pictures made me realize they are by me ,my emotions will be poured out to them ,my incessant rants will be repeated on their bed and they sure will hear me ..Weeping sure comes every night but Joy is nowhere to be found ..Maybe it could knock on my door and just maybe I may have a reason to believe Joy does exist ..

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My dear mother

Annabel ogechi okpechi — Wed, 13 Nov 2024 14:41:41 GMT

My hands are trembling writing about my beloved mother ..I try to close my eyes but all

I see is my mom crying like she made a mistake leaving me ..I could be bad and all sorts of

things but she had her way of bringing me back ..

Looking at you lying in that lifeless state made me question my creator ..why did he

have to take you away like that .Even if he wanted to take you ..why did he make you

suffer ..I saw you bear pains no one else could ..I cried behind closed doors that I dint get

to spend enough time with you ..

When I went through my heartbreak ..you gave me your shoulder to lean on ..You

cried yourself to sleep simple because I couldn’t sleep ..A mothers love they say is the

greatest ..You always know how to make me come home each time I embark on my endless

journey of fun and frivolities ..

Your smile made me smile and looking back today I cannot help but wonder why you

did not carry my children ..Were you not supposed to wait till I bring my hubby home ?

Were you not supposed to dash me the items you bought for me for my wedding ? You were

supposed to stand by my side in the labor room and scream ….Oge push so your child

won’t die …Who would bath my child and press her hot water? ..who will admire the

dimples I intend passing unto my child? ..Who will call me a lazy girl and rain funny

abuses on me ?Who will join my tiktok videos and drag my wigs with me ? Who will insist

on following me to the spa to get her face and hair done ..You left me at a point where I

had no money to fly you ..

My uttermost regret was not having to cry and watch you cry with me on my wedding

day ..Hugging me and telling me to stay well ..

Going home is hard because when I go to your room the whole place is dead without

you …Mummy you always said I will look for you one day ..I look for you each day ..The

family is apart ..The one you look onto has left me ..

”claims he’s too busy “the other one is

not a calling type …while the other is trying to make ends meet to continue the good

legacy ..The other is a fashionista who makes me have hope that you are watching over us ..

The man of the house is down each day ..I know he misses you but he can’t say it ..He’s

not economical ..But what can I say ..you are not around to help manage his funds ..Your

dear sister misses you everyday even though she now sees your family as a plague and has

refused to stay with you ..If only you had stayed a little longer ..

I’m not a saint either ..May have deviated but all an end to a good ..Distractions are

not in my favor anymore ..Your grandkids all grown and ask of you ..You brother doesn’t

care about your family and no one does the same ..

You were the one that brought us together ..You taught me everything I know now ..from

the stories to the writing ,to the fashion ..The daughter in law you prayed to have is here

now ..moving forward ..The daughter in-law you loved is here too ..taking over you ..The

daughter inlaw you saw is also here no words to say ..You are in a better place ..

Your last boy misses you ..once I heard him cry and it was funny because I never knew

a hard man like him could cry ..Most nights I cry myself to sleep knowing my gistmate isn’t

here ..You say I love him more than you ..That was what I thought until I stayed with you

and spent every minute of pain with you ..I saw them cut your leg ..I died a million times

but I had to be strong for you .

I touched you when you were cold and lifeless praying for you to come back ..Your

hand was cold ..God took you from me ..He sure should watch you for me ..Cox this girl

right here isn’t strong ..

I’m broken into a thousand pieces ..I want to make you proud ..I want to marry the man

than will make you smile from above ..I want you to be happy you raised me ..If at any

point I turn into something else ..Knock my head and let me know that you love me ..

I love you each passing day ..I love you each minute,I love you each second ..I love you

from the depth of my heart ..Journey well and give me stories in my dreams..wipe my tears

in my dream and kiss me goodnight so I can sleep ..

I love you with my life …

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