When I was in kindergarten and elementary school, i had a lot of dreams, a lot. But for some reason, since Junior High School and Senior High School i felt empty, i lost everything. My interests, my light, and my desire to do something good, they just disappeared. I thought this feeling was only temporary, But until now I’m afraid to dream. I don’t know what happened to me, i don’t know since when i felt this way.

I feel so afraid to dream, even though i have the potential to do what i want.

Even in non-academic areas, i had potential, but somehow that feeling disappeared. I don’t know if it disappeared or if it just sat there waiting for me to ignite it.

I admit, i’m a loser, a loser who can only run away from problems. But i have tried, i have tried everything so that i can do what i want, but i failed. So what else can i do ?

Actually, what am i looking for? What is this nagging feeling that is always inside me? I feel strange, really strange. What have i been looking for all this time?

I’m confused, i feel lost, am i lost? Or is it just my feeling, i don’t know…

Every day, i make decisions that lead nowhere. i just hope that i can get through this, and i can live happily.

I don’t know if I’m happy or not, maybe neither.

Let’s make hope, there’s no harm in it, right?