I am happiest when I’m writing

I know I’m happiest when I write — the stories, the notes, anything.

But I have a fear of success. I have a fear of failure. The only way to get past the fear is develop the manuscripts. I have to keep writing and write more often. All the other crap in my life is just distractions.

Distractions were, are, and will be just that. Distractions. I am just too lazy to write. I have no faith or confidence in my abilities. So I must keep going. The only way I can redeem myself is to become a successful author.

(After twenty-nine years, this is still true. I am happiest when I write.)