Goodbye (for now)

(poetry…or something like it)

that’s what it felt like.
that’s what it was for me, anyway.
a good bye.
he added the “for now.”

no, he didn’t say it… but he said it.
he’s been saying it for months.
as always… i’ve got to do the heavy lifting… the wet work.
so i sank to his level and said it without saying it, too.

i think he got the hint.
and i am surprisingly okay.
i shed all of my tears while on the phone… being careful not to sniff or let my voice crack.
he didn’t need to know.
it wouldn’t matter if he did anyway.
nothing would change.

the door is being left open.
we will live our lives on opposite sides of the threshold.
me waiting for him to want to walk through…
him waiting for me to give him a reason.