Now That I Am Sober, I Can Feel Inner Emotions
I don’t remember myself crying much since growing up.
Of course, there were emotions along the way where I would feel hurt or angry, but I could always keep it within.
Before I became sober this year, with alcohol being my daily go-to best friend, I thought I was happy.
Whether I was feeling happy or upset, everything ended with a few drinks in the evening. It would take away the ability for me to process any emotions.
25+ years of drinking. Was I numb? Or having a lack of emotions? Maybe.
I made many poor decisions in the past, thinking that I was being clever.
Being sober now and looking back at all these experiences, I have discovered the importance of having a clear mind.
I noticed recently that I am more sentimental or can experience more emotions.
I would have teary eyes when I am feeling emotional, especially something that is very touching or when I am missing my late Grandma.
This is something I have never felt before.
Instead of holding my tears in, I would just let it out. I would have teary eyes and boogers running, but I feel so much better afterward.
