turns out “moving on” fast and moving on are two different things
apparently, I move on fast//faster than you//but when I “move on” I don’t actually move on//
so now that you were heartbroken to know I had “moved on“ so fast
you then you moved on yourself// but I’m still here thinking about how nice it was
when my friends called you mine// and I’m still here mourning the death of the deep emotional bond we had// do you miss it too?
I thought I was a master of emotional detachment
but now I see that was silly
when people live their whole lives trying to figure out how to do just that
I detached, but on the condition that you would absolutely come running back to me
the fact that you won’t
is hard to accept
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the way I
don’t want to block you because “it’ll make it weird” and
“I just want to be friends” and
“it’ll be okay if we are just friends” but
our friendship doesn’t kill the desire for
that something real
that something that only came from you.
what is this? because this isn’t friendship.
I was foolish: I thought I could put two and two together and since we are friends, friends (usually) still care for each other on a deep level//
but not you and your friends//
so i guess it is comforting to know you don’t care about your friends either.
the same way you//had cared about me.
i wish you would care now//
and i acknowledge the only way//is to fall back down to earth//and give up my space// i carved in the sky.
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