Life is always now

Fajar Siddiq
Dec 31, 2019 · 12 min read

It is always that typical moment to reflect about life.
But everything else is not typical, is just the way how we see, think & feel it.
These questions always keep coming back at the back of my mind.
“What i have achieve? what’s my next plan? what is the next goal?”
The vision & mission of yearly thingy becomes a thing, “resolutions”
I spend a lot of time self-reflecting monthly, weekly & also daily.
But when comes to year end, it is always difficult to put things together.
I felt that, i’m just too tired to do this & never felt really excited for this.
Most people i know get really excited for it, especially in their upcoming goals.

At times i do feel pathetic, mainly because of reality check. Reality check comes from your responsibilities like paying your bills & saving money for your finance, taking care of your health, keep improving your learning skills and knowledge. At the same time i find is tough to juggle with personal life, family, friends and community. You got to pay attention what brings out the best of you & what works best for you. If it is not in line with your goals & dreams, i will feel that it is not important part of my journey.

I know at times i have not done much and always learning.
Learning takes time, adapting & growing as well.
I feel like learning is the most important thing in my journey.
Also putting it together as actions.
While everyone is doing this “little end-of-the-year reflecting”
I’m here trying to think how i can do it “better, not bigger”
I felt like there is so many things to get done, little by little until it is complete.
One of the way to get this done is by following the culture.
Culture have alot of meaning, often times we are just following and not doing.

💯 ️“Culture is not what you say, is what you do.”

— Marc Randolph, Co-founder of netflix

“Better, Not Bigger”

This is my current quote running on my mind, saw this quote on some google search. I actually made a podcast about this & also decided to write this blog.

🥭Mango Minutes Podcast Episode 3 “Better, Not Bigger”

I began doing alot of self-reflecting when i’m less busy.
When i’m busy, everything goes really super fast.
One thing after another thing.
From notifications, news and so many information.
1 week before the year ends, i cut down my activities on social media.
I hold my phone and ask myself, what i have done and what i have not completed in 2019. It was very difficult to answer those questions.
I told myself if i can do everything by all myself but no, i was wrong.
Because you need to do a reality check,
You need to surround with the best like minded people.

💌 Surround yourself with the dreamers and the doers, the believers and thinkers, but most of all, surround yourself with those who see greatness within you, even when you don’t see it yourself.

So here’s my 2019–2020.
Things like my finances, health and todos task i’ve done.
My goal is to create better connection to myself.
Shout out to my indie-maker friend Anne-Laure Le Cunff
For creating a template “Year in review”
A template to review your past year and plan the year ahead!

👨‍⚕ ️Health & Fitness

  • I was going through burnout: end year 2018

Conclusion: I created a better lifestyle now for past 6 months: Eat, Shop & Cook healthier, Sleep & Wake-up early, Continue to progress my diabetes from sugar intake. Also working out at least 2–3 times a week. So this is what happens when you are stressed then it leads to burnout then meltdowns and then it hits you with chronic disease “diabetes”. So health is a very serious thing, especially genetically it runs in your family.

The tweet that i was diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes
The tweet that i overcome burnout, huge thanks to the maker’s community.

🤑 Work & Business

  • 10 years in the design & tech industry

Conclusion: I will be putting the side-projects as a learning progress and also part of my company. I will keep building it, doesn’t matter how long it takes, for as long it is done and it will be profitable. For my companies, i will continue to build & apply new technology and skills i learned and build it better. I will always go with the Zebra’s and not Unicorn, Independent & Boostrapped way of growing the business. Business is a long marathon, so always sharpen your skill!

🎮 Making video for CSS Scan Pro
🚀A playlist of some video launches
💌 Awesome advice i got in real life!

💬 Friends & Community

  • I became maker “influencer” in the community to share about good products, feedback & reviews

✍ ️Conclusion: So i spend time doing product reviews, i enjoy doing them in short videos like 2 mins or less. I make this videos to share with everyone in the community. Apart from that i got some swag from other companies.

🕵️‍♂️I became Influencer in the maker community by product hunt,
🤑One of the community member i help in his journey, there were more people but this is among the best moments as well with indie-maker/digital nomad from India, Mohd Danish
😃Here is a playlist of videos that i made

👪 Personal Life & Family

  • 🤷‍♂ ️My personal life was doing just fine, i’m still single. I wanted to find a partner but i think is difficult because i was single for 10 years and if i found one, i will settle down and get married.

✍ ️Conclusion: So i spend time more with my online friends more with other close friends, i also meet alot of people in real life and also spend my time with my family! I use to have a large number of friends but now i keep it small within my circle.

📹Family time was the best time, here is a playlist of videos!

✅ Learning & Knowledge

  • I learn how to build community really quickly by helping others. It was great to bring people together and make it more engaging, we achieve by sharing and learning together from all over the world.

✍ Conclusion: Special thanks to the makers community for sharing me all this amazing tools and also it have different impact on me on using it.

🚶‍♂️ Travel & Culture

  • I visited Malaysia & Indonesia for nomading in Kuala Lumpur & Batam

✍ Conclusion: It was fun travelling, going to places without any goals but just plans of meeting people, good food, good time, places where is safe and full of nature and culture

At new Stripe office for some JAMstack meetup
Meet up with Tomas from Sweden
Featured in Cerita Desainer
💌 Two makers from different country come together to travel and work together! Amazing thing ever

✈️ Hobbies & Creativity

✍ Conclusion: It was really great to be creative and showing your best at what you do, If you think you’re talented then be persistent at what you do, because that is all matters to keep going!

My 1st episode of podcast mango minutes
By far! this is my best move for Solo-Ham trick!

📖 Emotions & Spirituality

  • I spent time memorizing and perfecting my quran recitation

✍ Conclusion: It feels good to recite al-quran, always guiding me to be a better person in my life. Also it helps me when i’m facing trials, tribulations and shortcomings.

🌹 Indeed, Allah forgives all sins. Indeed, it is He who is the Forgiving, the Merciful —

💸 Money & Finances

  • I make very little money this year, it sucks! but i’m grateful, enough for me to buy groceries and travel short trips for nomading. As much as it is i want to be making good monthly recurring revenue so i can pay my bills consistently

✍ Conclusion: I need to keep on growing multiple source of income, monthly recurring revenue target and also annually. Everything needs to be automated so i can grow my profit more and focus/balance more things better.

💸 — thanks to the makers who supported me in 2019

💸 Proudest Accomplishments

  • Taking care of my health! Overcome burnout & improve my lifestyle because of Type 2 Diabetes. Food intake is so important. Cooking healthy food is a must.

😠 Biggest Challenges

  • Bills, After Bills, After crazy final warning letter bills. I hate it when i open my letter box and then i have hundred over dollars need to pay! Damn it. It was difficult times, i had to apply short-term social finance support for 3 months from the goverment, but i will keep doing it better.

🏆 Main Goals For Next Year

  • Make money first, make money second, make more money third, save money always.

🙇‍♂️ Grateful & Blessed

Finally this are little things i’m grateful for.
Some good memories

My new specs, i can see better now
Me trying to finish client work in the shipping pod
Love this book and stickers

Life is always now, be yourself and do what you do best at the same time, do what is right, know what is wrong and also keep striving to be better even when no one understands what you’re going through. Be strong and be patience in your journey, most importantly be grateful. Don’t forget the poor and the needy even if you’re broke, don’t forget that there is more people out there who went through more difficult struggles. So appreciate what you have and always know you can do it better. Always be nice on your way up and always help people. Knowing that, as you grow older things get taken from you, but nothing stops you to be better when you play more and have fun! So keep giving. Don’t chase after fame, focus on being better and not bigger. If you want to be serial entrepreneur, make sure you know what you’re selling, what you’re building and most importantly you must know how to maintain it, maintenance and persistency is very important. — Fajar Siddiq, 2019 end.

🤑Support my journey —

👨🏻‍💻 Serial Entrepreneur + Indie-Maker + Influencer + Producer + Professional Yo-Yo Player + Digital Nomad + Designer & Developer ⚡🚀🛠️

Fajar Siddiq

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👨🏻‍💻 Serial Entrepreneur + Indie-Maker + Influencer + Producer + Professional Yo-Yo Player + Digital Nomad + Designer & Developer ⚡🚀🛠️

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