Balancing My Two Realities
After my awakening, it became much harder to live in the physical world. One reality is peace and love, and the other is sadness and pain. It’s a daily balancing act where my spiritual self has to operate in the physical world.
In the physical world, I have obligations such as work, family, and all the responsibilities that comes with it. I have loved ones struggling with grief and sadness. Sometimes it feels like I’m being pulled apart in all directions.
At times, my work as a mental health therapist is overwhelming. Some days I see up to nine clients, and they all look to me for answers and understanding. I listen, comfort them, and try to teach them how to think about their thoughts and let go of their pasts.
I open doors of possibility hoping they’ll walk through. Too many choose to remain in familiar territory because they’re afraid of change. They keep repeating similar patterns hoping for a different outcome.
My friends are struggling with end-of-life situations with their families. I cry with them and offer support. I feel their pain and pray for them. Once more, I listen and provide comfort.
The physical world is filled with sadness, grief, hate, and suffering. Parents hurt their children in more ways than one. Children are ostracized for being different, and they feel alone. Countries go to war and more people die. I turn off the news because it’s always the same.
After I had my spiritual awakening, I felt lighter and connected to the universe. The spiritual world is filled with peace, love, and limitless possibilities. It’s a feeling I carry in my heart everywhere I go. It’s a gift I encourage others to seek.
I meditate and connect to the source. I ask the universe to protect my loved ones and give them peace and understanding. I lay aside my need to control and open myself up to the quantum realm.
At times, I receive messages for my loved ones, but they’re confused, so they don’t take my messages seriously. I continue to plant seeds in hopes one day they’ll discover their true purposes and awaken to a higher consciousness.
I’m in the beginning phase of my spiritual journey, but I ache to reach a higher level of enlightenment. I’ve been made aware of my future self and the turn my career will take. I struggle with patience because I’m eager for more.
After my morning meditations, I struggle to enter the physical world. I remind myself of my purpose, and I feel grateful for an opportunity to shine light into the world. I continue living in two realities while craving only one.
by Jamie H.
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