№ 48-on satisfaction
Sep 6, 2018 · 1 min read
i scrutinize my every action
when i’m around you
i suck in my stomach
i try to walk like a supermodel
i tense and never complain
i hold my head high
even when the world
inside me
is collapsing
the second i stop being perfect
you will lose interest
i am only worthwhile
as a distraction
a pin up girl to walk around with
to show off
i am not a long term commitment
if i am not good enough
i will be replaced
like a part that doesn’t work quite right
because as much as i smile to myself
and convince myself i’m fine
it’s a lonely moment
when i realize that i am not
my teeth aren’t white enough
my legs not thin enough
my skin not clear enough
i
as a soul
am not
enough.

