Crossing The Trans Divide
Moving closer to a ‘cis life’
Socialization by Assumed Gender
If I had been assigned female at birth, I would have experienced female socialization. Being assigned male at birth, I endured male socialization. Coming to terms with being trans at thirty-eight and finally medically transitioning at fifty-four, I had been under the naïve impression that this internal feminine presence existed. Almost five years into my transition, I realized that this feminine presence is my personality that was never socialized female.
If I had been assigned female at birth, I would have experienced female socialization.
The Long Con
Going through the male-to-female transition process of HRT, living as a woman, legally changing my name, having gender-affirming surgery, and altering my voice and mannerism, I thought, was the process. Go through the process and live happily ever after as a woman. Probably after losing a spouse, family, friends, maybe a job or housing.
As a late transitioning woman, I am experiencing a deep sense of being conned or misled. It’s not all hormones, dresses, name changes, surgeries, and living and sounding like a cis woman. It’s also becoming a woman, letting go…
