Why I’m Getting Top Surgery

From a transmasculine nonbinary individual’s perspective.

Photo by Kaitlyn Baker on Unsplash

My top surgery is less than 24 hours away. Let’s all take a moment to process that information. [Deep breaths.] Alright, cool. I’m moderately concerned about post-operative depression, and I have not come across many resources for nonbinary individuals on this subject. In order to combat any potential anxiety or depression around the permanent change I will be making to my body tomorrow, and to help out the next soon-to-be (or recently) de-breasted kid, I’ve curated a list of reasons why I’m having this procedure.

Let’s start with a few practical, corporal reasons:

• Not having to bind my breasts in order to feel safe enough or confident enough to leave my bedroom
• No longer hurting my posture, breathing, and skin from binding
• Not having to plan my days and outfits around binding
• Not worrying about my binder being visible or creasing my outfits
• No longer being (mis)gendered because of my breasts
• No longer disassociating or being overcome with gender dysphoria at the sight of a chest that doesn’t match what I envision