Apprehension — is something bad about to happen?

Apprehension is my friend and foe.

Sometimes she is for my growth and purpose.

To become a better individual;

able to learn from careless mistakes.

Sometimes she terrifies me.

Making me want to

hide in a rabbit hole and

Never face reality again.

Apprehension is familiar yet not so.

When it comes to making decisions,

she enjoys handholding me,

Raising my thoughts as if

they were her children.

Apprehension is uncertainty — past, present and future.

From within the head, to the core of the heart.

she has time in the palm of her hand.

Deceiving the brilliant,

externalising our internal War,

train-wreck, chaos.

Apprehension is a killjoy.

More often than not, we find ourselves

Giving in to her,

Letting her take full advantage and control of

our life’s many woes.

Would it be any better if

We depend on our capable selves

and Perhaps,

give Apprehension a break?