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You are at your best when you’re better

By the way…

If I told you I would call you back or send you a message…

I lied…

Right now, I’ve got extreme social anxiety, and I have no interest in doing so.

It’s not you. It’s me.

No, I didn’t have a Merry Christmas. No Happy Holidays. My brother died a preventable death. If I don’t seem like myself…Guess what?!

I’m not…

So why would an otherwise private person share this much?

Because somebody else has experienced pain, hardship, and even loss of friends and loved ones, but never took the time to actually grieve.

You are at your best when you are whole.

If you take the time to go through your process, you will know when you are whole. At some point you’ll manage the pain of loss instead of it managing you. Don’t feel guilty. You’re not moving on to leave your loved one behind. You’re growing to accept a new normal filled with memories that seem surreal and a love that is so true.



Thoughts on Depression, Loss, and Life after Suicide

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Joshua E McCoy I

Professional writer for hire. Making heretical statements against all systems of domination. Raising the consciousness in culture + commerce + community. #WEOC