Why Them, Why Not Me?

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I’m exhausted

I’ve been applying for something for 4 years, and the organization in charge refused to approve it.

Meanwhile, they approved others.

I’m not being arrogant or talking down on anyone, but I know at least two of these people I’m likely more qualified than.

• Why them?
• And why not me?

It’s petty to say that out loud.

It’s one of those thoughts we all think but dare not say because we don’t want to be sore losers.

Blaming yourself is a burden

I’ve spent the past four years blaming myself.

There must be something about me that made them not approve my application.

Maybe I’m just a bad person who doesn’t deserve anything good.

Two days ago, my current application expired. I wasn’t sure I wanted to reapply.

So I left it to think.

After spending the whole day thinking, I came to some conclusions-

1. Life is in turns

Human wants are endless.