wk#4 — Weak week
This week, supposed to be a great week, turned into a nightmare.
I am on vacation! Time to be generous with family and friends. Not hard! Easy! And our cohort, of course. Well that was the plan.
The reality is that I have not been much available this week, contrarily to previous weeks.
I felt completely tired since the first day of holidays. I slept much more than usual. Not able to focus on any regular stuffs — such as reading.
Every movement required a great effort. Even spending time with my wife and kids was hard. I did my best though. Then sciatica pain! What is that? I never had that before!
Why is suddently generosity so hard? I feel guilty. I see slack messages on my i-Phone all day long:
Mariana Rego: Gave my cousin 5 rais
Lucia Die Gil: Shared a video with Jane Kelly
Heather Hanson: I’ve shared and retweeted several posts this morning from individuals doing great things in the world
Jose Sopeña: Provided encouragement and positive feedback to a colleague
Me: nothing
Why?
My ego feels guilty. Not me. Too hard for me right now.
Question: Have I been generous with myself for the last months?
Obviously I was not.
Question: Can you be generous with others if you forget about yourself?
Not always. I didn’t know that.
