Dating/Self

How Intentional Dating Has Transformed My Dating Experience

How dating almost gave me a heart attack and killed my self-esteem.

Heart Affairs
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4 min readJun 21, 2024

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Just as I was getting on the train home, I received a call that was about to shock me and change my dating life forever. I glanced at the display, and I was giddy to pick up. My new boyfriend was on the other end of the line, but I wasn’t prepared for what he had to confess.

Standing in a train aisle, one sentence made me almost have a heart attack. This guy I met at work and fell head over heels for told me he wasn’t single. Rattled, I fell into the next free seat and hung up. I didn’t know what to say, let alone what to think. How could someone do this to another person? And could I bring control and some sense of predictability into my dating life?

Dating is a rollercoaster, and it can be brutal.

I was caught so badly off-guard that I didn’t know how to react. I wasn’t prepared to be lied to like that. Was I too careless, too naive even? Should I have asked more questions and checked his social media more thoroughly? And why didn’t I stand up for myself and call it quits right then and there?

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Phoebe Kirke
Heart Affairs

Feminist, activist, sister, but above all, hurt. Writing is my path to living life to the fullest.