I Cheat To Stay
There’d be no us if I didn’t cheat.
“God, I’m so horny…give me your hand.” It was a bright August morning. I’d woken horny. I needed to be touched.
“I’ll do the work.”
The bed shifted.
The door closed before I opened my eyes.
I was alone.
It didn’t open again until I left the room.
It was humiliating.
I didn’t need anything else, just a hand. It had been three years since I’d asked for sex. Any sort of sex. Sexual touching. A touch.
And I couldn’t even get a fucking hand.
I felt worthless.
“Are we ever going to have sex again?” I asked later, knowing the answer.
“Someday,” he said, quickly walking away.
Someday was never.
When we were young, we never spoke about sex; we just fucked. Neither of us was skilled, but we had enough passion to carry us through.
When we met in our…