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I Keep Getting Stung By Bumble

So why do I keep diving back into this dating app?

kasey sparks
Heart Affairs
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6 min readJan 9, 2024

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I keep diving back into Bumble | photo credit S. Kalnite

My ex-husband started dating someone within a month of our divorce. One month. The man who was incapable of having an intimate relationship with me found someone in a month.

And here I sit alone after almost five years of searching and more first dates than I care to reveal. I’ll only say the number is higher than my age (57) and lower than 100.

I know part of the problem is timing.

I’ve met some good men who were fresh out of a divorce. I felt sadness and pain lurking. During this time frame, there’s still so much to process.

I know. I was once in that space. I thought I was ready to date too, but I wasn’t. I desperately wanted what I didn’t have and clambered hard to get it.

But that wasn’t the time for me to be dating. That was the time for healing. The men I met right after the ink on my divorce had dried must have sensed my sadness and desperation and backed away. Understandable. I back away now when I sense those things too.

During my adventures in dating, I’ve met so many “no’s”. So many who I determined weren’t a good match for me. So many who I liked and wanted to see again but they didn’t feel the same way about me.

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kasey sparks
kasey sparks

Written by kasey sparks

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