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Soulmate On the Side
When your affair isn’t a love story.
“You are everything to me,” my first affair partner pronounced.
You aren’t everything to me. I need more.
“Don’t you think there are multiple partners for all of us?” I asked him.
“No. I believe in destiny,” he answered.
You have got to be kidding me.
Who believes that stuff?
There are partners for all of us. Some are better than others. Of all the people in the world, there will be possibilities.
I tried to explain.
“No, we are special. Don’t you feel it?” my lover argued.
“It’s nice but…” I responded. “I think we are special, but it’s not enough.”
“What do you mean?” he complained.
“Affairs can teach us what we want in our marriage, strangely,” I answered.
I wanted a genuine partnership. In every sense.
And not with you, I thought.
Did I have that? No. I had a provider and a roommate, and a caring friend in my husband. Was it enough? No. I would like a passionate spouse. Was I going to get that? No.
