My Ex’s Addiction To Men’s Magazines Stole My Identity

How I could never stand up to the illusion, nor could our relationship.

Ellen McRae
Feb 28 · 7 min read
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My ex always kept a stack of men’s magazines. In the bottom drawer of his bedside table.

I Have Zero Objections To Adult Material

The Feelings Didn’t Happen Overnight

I Said How Unhappy The Magazines Made Me

But He Took Away My Voice

I Couldn’t Keep Up With The Demands

I Still Don’t Know What The Magazines Meant To Him

The Feeling Of Rejection Was Real

Yet It Was More Than Just A Stack Of Magazines

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