Where Do I Go When There’s No Place Where I Belong?
I feel fake, forced, like a poser a weed among the garden of flowers.
Hey Doc,
So I’ve come to learn a very painful lesson that we’ll not matter what I do I don’t belong anywhere really or with any community. I love making art but you’re not stereotypical artist of being queer, softboi, thin or androgynous so I don’t belong with that community. I’m Hispanic yet I’m not of swarthy complexion not fiery or spicy or can’t even dance so even I’m in my culture I feel like an outsider. Tabletop wargaming is one hobby I enjoy yet I’m neither odd quirky enough or socially awkward like people with at my store nor am I well, queer, which again is a community I don’t feel like I belong to. I enjoy going to the gym yet I feel like I don’t belong there because I’m quite introverted and not very hurrah gym bro with big bulging muscles again. I’m a huge metalhead yet at metal head yet when I go to metal concerts I feel like an outsider or a poser because I’m not tatted up to the max nor do I wear all black, wear patches or have piercings or wear black eyeliner. I love going to conventions yet I’ve never made a single cosplay in my life and once again I feel like an outsider there.
