Dear 18 Year Old Jon. You Idiot.

Daily Blog #8

Dear 18 year old Jon.

You’re the world’s biggest idiot. I’m writing this from a cafe in North Sydney, and I’m looking back on the decisions you’ve made, and I want you to know that I think they were pretty dumb.

You went out there and you dedicated your life to idea, after idea, after idea. You chased so many creative projects and threw everything you had at them, and gave it your all. You chased dream after dream, through music and art and writing and startups and film…and you wouldn’t take no for an answer.

You refused to quit, when it was patently clear that the jig was up. You refused to compromise. You compromised too much. Time and time again, you looked at the sun. And you thought you could do it all and have it all.

You’ve loved the wrong people, more than you’ve loved the right people. You’ve thrown your money at experiences that were a hell of a lot of fun, rather than putting them into meaningful assets and investments. You wanted to do, more than you wanted to learn. You wanted to live, more than you wanted to win.

You tried every path that looked like it could be a good time. And in fact you lived like you were here for a good time, not a long time.

Looking back, I could give you all the advice in the world about what you could have done differently. How you could have lived better, saved more, exercised wisdom and maybe own a fucking Porsche by now. But I’m not going to do that.

Because 18 year old Jon – you’re an idiot. And you made the worst decisions. And you did the dumbest crap imaginable.

But I can’t thank you enough.

You did what nobody else thought was a good decision, and you have the scars, the memories and the laughter, and the tears to show it. I’m pushing 30 now, and I’m thankful every single day for the life that you gave me. I would not have had it any other way.

In the words of Bill Nighy…

🗓 I’m exhausted today. I find Monday mornings to be a huge emotional drain. They’re tough, because when you’re completely focused on creative content and doing your own thing, you have to tap into a reserve of energy that gets you up and about, when nobody else is going to do it for you. That’s quite difficult, and I don’t think it ever gets easier.

I’m excited about the week to come though. I’m going through a process of minimising my life right now, getting rid of clutter and crap and finding a way to make it all a little simpler. I’m also going through voice tests and screen tests for the new shows that I’m producing, and they’re slowly starting to come together – which is nice.

I’m heading to a mate’s place in Drummoyne right now to work on some musical projects, and then I’m popping into a meeting with an angel investor who wants me to review the marketing strategy of a startup she’s looking at backing. That’ll be fun, it always is.

💡 Here’s my daily ask!

I’m looking for a studio space in Sydney where I can shoot some of the video over the next few months. If you’ve got anywhere kinda cool, a warehouse or a co-working space with video facilities, that would be rad, and you can drop me an email. I’m also on the hunt for new brands to work with on developing their own creative content, or who want channels to be produced, and that’s something I’m up for! Send me an email if you want to help: jon@jonwestenberg.com