I Still Get Completely Discouraged
But I’ve gotten to that point where I pretty much just grin and bear it.
Lately, I’ve been in something of an emotional slump. I find that happens a whole lot any time I try to make big, positive changes in my life. Oh God, who am I kidding — it happens even when I attempt a teeny tiny change. It’s something I guess I should have expected as soon as I decided to get treatment for inattentive ADHD. And I probably should have expected it once when I began adding a few more routines to my life.
This week, my daughter’s on spring break, I’m adjusting to a time-released version of Adderall, and I’m really feeling the fact that my life sort of goes to shit without an external daily routine.
My life on Adderall when I’m driving my daughter to and from school feels a lot more manageable than my life on spring break — even with the meds. Perhaps a higher dose of medication will help me out with that sort of thing. Or another class of drugs might end up working best. It’s hard to say, and obviously, meds may never get me over the hurdles I feel about juggling multiple routines.
Maybe I’ll struggle forever with this stuff. Or, maybe I’ll finally figure it out. The only way I’ll ever actually know is if I try.
