So how about those moments when you don’t know what you feel?
As I write this series I have been taking inspiration from this list of feelings provided by the Center for Nonviolent Communication.
Everyday I look at the list and I choose one emotion: it can be what I am feeling at the moment, or simply a word that I feel like telling a story about.
I also use this list daily to help me get in tune with myself. Every morning, as I am journaling, I look at it, and I search for the word that best describes the current frequency of my heart (I wrote about it here, if you’re interested).
However, there are days in which I just don’t know. The list, usually a precious navigation tool, looks like a map without names, a compass that points nowhere.
In those days, everything else is a blur as well. I go through the morning automatically — grateful for the routines I have previously established — because my decision power is null. I am good at agreeing and at suppressing my true wants and needs, only to do what’s easier.
In those days, I build up some sort of charge that later on will have to come out, one way or another. In those days, although I don’t realize it, I trigger something in the future. This is neither good nor bad; it’s like some kind of premonition, the certainty that things will change, and that I will be the one changing them.
1#Motivation; 2#Disgust; 3#Arousal; 4#Nostalgia; 5#Tiredness; 6#Tranquility; 7#Fascination; 8#Fear; 9#Passion; 10#Vulnerability; 11#Gratitude; 12#Anxiety; 13#Joy; 14#Numbness; 15#Jealousy; 16#Hope; 17#Anger; 18#Enchantment; 19#Longing; 20#Openness; 21#Exhaustion; 23#Sadness; 24#Frustration; 25#Perplexity