Almost as if I wasn’t able to miss anything
As I was watching an interview on a TV talk show, I decided to go to bed. A feeling of misplacement kind of took over my mind as I wondered if I’d miss that later on. “Of course not, I’ll just watch it on YouTube. Somebody will certainly upload that.” Up to this point, it’s been a while since I’d thought about having to wait before we can get what we want.
I remember back in the day if we missed a TV show or a movie, and we didn’t own a VHS recorder or had a spare tape, that meant we’d probably have to wait for months before we could watch that again. Sometimes we couldn’t even watch that again because it could be an interview or a relative showing up on the news. If we really wanted to capture that moment, we had to be prepared, like a photographer with a camera, films and batteries. Which reminds me that even photographs took time to be revealed. It took so long, that we would probably look at ourselves with different eyes, considering ourselves different from the ones framed in the picture. So much different than having that instantaneous feedback from our tiny LED displays. Polaroids were expensive.
I bet you don’t feel like that anymore. And if you were born around 10 to 15 years ago, then it’s safe to assume you probably don’t even understand what I’m talking about, maybe it’s a fading memory to your brain. Wait to see a picture? Am I insane? Was it really not that long ago?
Time flies in such an odd manner. It makes me think I shouldn’t be born in the 90’s because my brain has some problems figuring out the 80’s were not 20 years ago. And at this current age it’s even harder to sense the years passing like the weeks rolling like days rolling like hours faster than my brain can figure. Are kids nowadays feeling the same way? Because it used to be a lot slower to me back in the day. Look at the clock. Time to wake up. You’re late for the bus. Looking for something to distract your brain? You missed your train home. The year didn’t even start. It’s my birthday. I’m quitting my job. It’s christmas. Did my cousin visited us this year or last year? Cause I can barely sleep and feel safe inside my head to think about every single detail that comprises my entire routine and the people I know. Those who are right and those who are wrong and the line blurs so quickly it’s easy to mistake everything as I drown in information with no oxygen tank in sight.
Everything seems to be available every single time. Almost as if I wasn’t able to miss anything.
Except for people. Life is so rare.
I don’t even recall why was I watching TV in the first place. It’s 2 AM. I should probably be sleeping right now.
