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Dancing With Another Showed Me I Was Non-Monogamous at Heart
Wings I had no idea had been tucked away underneath my shoulder blades unfolded when I danced
It’s been two years since I last dated. Two years since I kissed anyone who wasn’t my primary partner. Two years since I’ve had another naked body pressed against mine.
I’ve decided to put dating others on pause, and I don’t miss it.
Or maybe sometimes I do…
See my partner, Drake, is graysexual.
Although he wasn’t identifying with this label at the time, his asexuality helped create the environment for me to discover my own sexual identity.
In the beginning, he didn’t identify as graysexual
After the early stages of our relationship, sex became a major point of contention for me.
Drake rarely, if ever, initiated sex. I felt invisible and undesirable. Sex became painful, emotionally, and then physically. I didn’t feel desired and my body eventually stopped responding when we did have sex.
At first, I thought something wrong with me. Then I thought maybe this was just what happened to women of a certain age.
