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What It Feels Like to Have ADHD AND ASD

ADHD-Day Poetry by Keira Fulton-Lees

Adderall — My Little Blue Time Capsule

Category ∙ Poetry ∙ Kicker ∙ Mental Health What It Feels Like to Have ADHD AND ASD ∙ Title ∙ ADHD-Day — By Keira Fulton-Lees
kPhoto by Jne Valokuvaus on shutterstock.com / Modified by Author

Light falls on empty eyes
Spills forth across the room
Then finds me (or part of me)
Slightly out of tune

The white mouse it circles me
Peaks quietly through the maze
Then crawls back inside of me
Today is not her day

Alarms within become aware
Scream loudly from slight cause
The hands that move in waves
Respond to those who stare

Scanning fast from distracted mind
‘Till find that one small thing
To cast my little rope around
And still this wave I ride

If slightest sound is heard just then
My eyes will dart about
Take snapshots of the crowded room
Until I scare it out

Then study each though seen before
The smallest change will do
For thoughts then to domino
Then quickly I’m consumed

A million little synapses
Deciding where to go
From a mind so undecided
Its difficult to just know

To react at once to everything
Then to hyperfocus on one solo
Pausing in the frig to wave
Until I then re-know

Then vanish to a world my own
A world of picture paint
A world of lights that speak to me
In rhymes that I arrange

In the air above my head
My hands capture all of these
And fit them in the puzzled air
Until I feel they’ve pleased

And about my home I do roam
And scurry throughout the day
Circle through and pick up things
I find along the way

There is this thing I need to get
It’s but four feet away
Go there straight, my best guess
A few seconds it should take

But seconds are sliced to fractions
And in beweeen change my game
Everything is a disttraction
And lead me many ways

Been hours now since I was here
What did become of me?
I don’t even remember now
What was that thing I need?

Perhaps, I don’t need it now
So, back to write my rhymes
Unless some other thing
Distracts me one more time

The little blue capsule rules
To keep me focused true
But there are times when I just feel
I can cope without the blue

But when I do, clueless time goes passed
A task of hanging pictures on the walls
‘Till midnight past my looking glass
I kinow no time at all

It feels just right to one like me
Knowing I’m not the norm
And with a smile, I’ll end with this
Bang bang! It’s half past three!

Category ∙ Poetry ∙ Kicker ∙ Mental Health What It Feels Like to Have ADHD AND ASD ∙ Title ∙ ADHD-Day — By Keira Fulton-Lees
-= Keira Fulton-Lees, As.D. =-
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