An Attitude Of Gratitude
This quarantine has given me a lot more time to think and reflect on what is most important in life. With that, comes an obvious blessing of gratitude. Gratitude is something that has been taught to me in so much of the curriculum revolving around mental health treatment, and Smart Recovery. It’s an education, I continue to pursue.
So often I can hear that phrase in my mind being said over and over again, “an attitude of gratitude.” I have heard it so many times come from the mouths of therapists, doctors, teachers and all kinds of experts. All the people that I surround myself with, when it comes to my yearning to learn more and more about having a safe, and successful recovery away from all the terrible drugs, and behaviours I once flooded my life with.
I have heard it strongly recommended by many that one of the best practices to start each morning with, is that attitude with gratitude. It isn’t as easy as one might think, and for those of us who may not be morning people, it may seem to be quite an impossible feat. After all, if one doesn’t like a nice fresh morning, how on earth could they should a bit of gratitude towards it?
It’s something that takes endless change. And we all know just how impossible changing ourselves can seem. Changing one’s entire being can be the most difficult of tasks, but if it’s done successfully, it reaps the most incredible of rewards.
When I want to write works like this, I find it easier to cover gratitude simply by writing my thoughts and emotions, and sharing where I happen to be mentally, at that particular moment. Sometimes supposed “writer’s block” can actually offer some of the best, and most spiritual of words and ideas. Coming direct from the mind as if it’s whatever the instant response, and instinct is.
When no preparation, is the best preparation.
That right there is deep. So let’s get back to gratitude. When I hear that word, I think of that more negative side of me. Why? Well, because I think of all the many wonderful people, and things that I have taken for granted, in the most shallow of ways. The polar opposite of gratitude. As if fueled by laziness; because maybe it’s quicker. Maybe it takes less work and less heart.
Things have changed, and that is something I am very grateful for. I no longer get feelings of awkwardness when I want to shed light on my gratitude. Because I am finally unashamed of the gratefulness I carry and recognize.
I am only human, so like everyone else, I am sure that taking life for granted is a character defect of mine. But it’s the swift recognition of a defect like that, which separates us from the others. We recognize our taking something or someone for granted, and we stop. Take a step back, and get back to a mood of appreciation, a mood of gratitude.
I have spent a lot of my time being what I call one who expected it all. I expected everything in life. Every blessing or good deed that came my way, I know deep down, I felt I had it coming my way. Even when I was sincerely thankful, sometimes as I look back now, it still seems a bit shallow at times.
Today is a different me. I don’t do things to have favors coming my way, and I don’t sit around expecting good things to come my way. I know now that there will be gifts for those who live spiritually. When those gifts will come, and what they will be, is only God’s choice. And it’s God’s job.
My job is to not sit around with my hands me saying over and over again, “me, me, me. mine mine mine.” I am happy to not live that way any longer.
Blessings will come their way when it’s the right time. These days, it is my gratitude that appreciates my loved ones, my life, and my sobriety and recovery.
is a Trenton, New Jersey Author, Publisher, Columnist, Editor, Advocate, and recovering addict, covering topics of mental health, addiction, sobriety, mindfulness, self-help, faith, spirituality, Smart Recovery, social advocacy, and countless other nonfiction topics.