Embarking On a Spiritual Odyssey

This has been the most important week of my entire life.

Vincent Van Patten
ILLUMINATION

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Journaling. Photo of the author.

This has been the most important week of my entire life. Yes, very dramatic, I know. But I think the situation warrants the hyperbole. I’ve spent the last six years in chronic back pain, the entirety of my twenties.

Throughout this journey, I’ve tried what feels everything physically on a holistic level, excluding surgery, injections, medications.

For the last year I’ve been in a program called the ​Back Breakthrough Blueprint​, what’s felt like the first genuine solution to my condition.

I signed up knowing that the route would not be linear, that it would take time, patience and resilience, and that there would inevitably be highs and lows to fix my back on a physical level.

But I broke down again on Monday, exactly like I did a week prior.

What the fuck is going on? I wondered.

I’ve been in the program for a year, and after breaking down this week, I capitulated. Team, what do I do, I asked the BBB community. I need encouragement; I need help.

I was meant to break down three times in the last month. I was meant to travel deep into my heart of hearts, my lowest low, because the universe is urging me to ask for help.

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Vincent Van Patten
ILLUMINATION

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