Helplessness…
I thought that it’s time to write about some deep, sad thoughts I have every now and then. I am not so sure how to portray my feelings about this in a write up but I’m going to give it a try.
Helplessness is not just a feeling for most people out there. It’s something that can take you down at any point in your life in a way that you feel as much agony and despair as in losing something really important to you. Except that you don’t actually lose or fail yourself in anything right at that moment, but you will be aware of how things will go downhill and how everything is going to affect you and you won’t be able to change anything about that fact, no matter what you did in every possible way you can.
People might tell you that you are capable of everything, earning everything, and will be happy as you are trying so hard. The bitter truth is that sometimes everything will not go as you wish even if you strive so hard to make it work. Even if you are wishing for something that’s not for your own good but for someone that you love, your efforts will be in vain to make that happen as that person doesn’t want it to be. They probably won’t be caring about it that much or might be their obstinacy to something.
Whenever you try and do something that’s good for them, they won’t even consider doing that or acknowledge you for thinking so. But the real pain is when you sit back and see that no matter what you did, things are not going to change and you end up having the worst helpless feeling that drowns you from inside.
Not being able to get some peace and happiness for your loved ones, even after you fight so long for that peace for them, is really dreading and painful place to be in. No matter how much you are capable of managing a whole lot of difficult situations by yourself and how tough it is for you to make your own peace and contentment, these people who look out for their loved ones in the midst of all that knows how helplessness is more than just a feeling and how it can cause all types of fears in your mind.
