I Can’t Let You Go, George

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I can’t close my eyes anymore
Because every time I try
I see the hard grey concrete under me
Reaching up to smash my face

I can’t shut my ears anymore
Because every time I try
I hear the words over and over
I can’t breathe, I CAN’T BREATHE

I can’t feel the pillow beneath my head
Because every time I try
I feel instead his knee on my neck
Crushing my sense out of me

I can’t smell the roses anymore
Because every time I try
I smell instead the choked gutter
That in which he lay me dead

The tears don’t stop flowing
As I want to curl up in shame
I want to leave my “humanity” behind
I can’t let you go, George

I can’t let you go.