“I don’t have time”
24 hours a day isn’t enough!
Before I go to sleep every night, I think of all the things I want to accomplish the next day. I want to eat correctly, exercise regularly, do my job well, focus on my side hustle, read more books, read the news, learn new things and even have time for friends and family. But do I have enough time in a day to accomplish all these? Will I ever get ‘more time’ to do all these?
I wish there were more hours in a day; to do everything I want. Sometimes, I am able to do everything I want in a day. Not sometimes, rarely (when things go the way I intended to go). There’s this constant feeling that I need to do more where I get to the point where I’m just so confused. There’s just too much out there in this world. Too much of everything. Over-abundance of information, which makes you want to consume everything.
I’m not complaining about the fact that we have easy access to everything at the tip of our fingers; I’m grateful that things are comparatively much easier for our generation. But we live in such a fast-changing world that requires us to constantly adapt to the environment.
Let me tell you what goes through my mind on a regular basis.
I wake up and my mind goes like “Do drink water, stay hydrated, do your morning routine and finish all your chores.”;
I do all that and then my mind goes like “Got to get ready for work; don’t forget to work on your side hustles, read the news, learn more”
I go through social media. Not only is there a lot of information, but I get this FOMO feeling of almost everything. Oh, this is a new trend; need to hope on this new trend; This book seems interesting; oh wait, this book too; oh wait, I want to read this book, it’s so overwhelming. I see my friends and family reaching new heights and successes and I’m happy for them sure, super happy. But then, of course, that stupid-ass imposter syndrome needs to come in and just ruin everything.
When I’m doing my work, everything is going smoothly. That’s when my migraines come to say hello to me. That’s when I cannot do anything properly, the way I intend to do it.
I’m supposed to come back home and work on learning some new skills (for my career) and work on my side hustle. But alas, I fail miserably because firstly of the migraines. Secondly, I’m so exhausted. And finally, I have to do chores at home.
By the end of the day, my mind tells me ‘You didn’t do enough, you need to work harder. You need to fix this tomorrow’.
The next day comes and a similar routine happens.
Don’t get me started on having time for friends and family which is quite important to me.
We live in a world where we gotta multitask.
It’s just that I’m so overwhelmed with everything. I have everything I need right in front of me yet I’m not able to do it all. That frustrates me (migraines begin again).
Kudos to all those amazing people out there who are able to manage it all. Not to perfection; but is able to handle it all. Family, career, side hustle, mental and physical health. Yes, I know these amazing people out there are humans and they do go through some challenges themselves. But, I can see you guys manage everything that I intend to do, so effortlessly. So, just want to appreciate you all for making enough time to do everything.
Yes, I’m passionate about the work I do. Some say you will make time to do what you wanna do if you’re passionate. I love what I do, but it’s just these obstacles are in the way. I’m all in about overcoming your problems, but oh I wish I could have more time to do everything I love to do.