JANE (Letter Series #4)
It is not fine…
Hey hey! I encourage you to read all the letters again and find a message that speaks to you. Here is the LAST letter in the series. My next posts will be new short stories. Enjoy!
My Response To Jane
Hi Jane,
I initially wanted to lie and tell you everything is fine, but it is not. I am heartbroken, and I keep hitting a wall. I feel like I am in a state where I am constantly reminded of my past and how I would be better if I remained there. Do you know how damaging it is when it feels like you have to unintentionally lose hope when you are struggling to still hold on? I think I am losing my mind, honestly. I am sick of it!
I do not know why bad things keep happening or why I keep meeting terrible people. It has been several months of constant agony, and I think I will pull out my hair if I get into another crazy situation. I am sure you know I did not expect to keep looking for my thing at this time. I expected to have figured things out and be swimming in bliss. Unfortunately, it seems to be taking time, and I just have to accept it. I only hope the win is eventually worth it.
I am trying hard to figure out my path, irrespective of the madness I face on the way. I am tired of thinking I have found it, settling in that space, sharing the good news, and being genuinely happy. All of a sudden, it gets taken away. Why?
The last one messed with my mind. I went from feeling excited and worthy to sad and worthless. I am still picking up the pieces slowly. The constant disappointment hurts so much, but please, I do not want to give up or return.
I know it may not seem like I am making sense, but I truly hope you understand me. The conversations of what-ifs do not help me at all. Let us talk about more pleasant things. I do not want pity; your hope is enough.
So, to answer your question, no, I am not okay. Allow me to feel this way. I will be okay eventually. I do not need any pressure to jump on anything. Let me fight without a desperation narrative. I would really appreciate it.
Sincerely,
Leia.
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