Sex, Drugs, Rock & Roll; Not My Gig Anymore .
“Unleash Your True Potential: Your Future Starts Now!”
It is very difficult to know what your true potential is. It has always been difficult for me. I have tried everything of interest. I can still deal with rock and roll, but the sex and drugs … forget it!
I feel fine with it. I am 73 and have had a boyfriend for the last seven years. I have decided to let him go as we were having some intimacy issues. And I felt I was living for him, not me. I was always trying to make him happy. I felt guilty if I didn’t. And he also made me feel guilty.
When we broke up I wrote over fifty items of why we were not a good match and why I don’t like him. (This idea came to me one day from a commercial for “Mattress Firm. Something about it just resonated.) Most people don’t do that, but I did.
I won’t go into the gory details but I do the “pro and con” list when I make decisions and there were definitely a hell of a lot of con’s on the list. I did not cry or suffer in any way. He probably didn’t either. It was just time. I’m tired of living for someone else. At my age, I need to live for myself and do what I want for me.
Thanks to a couple of writers on Medium that got me going writing again. You know who you are. I could not think of anything…
