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The Struggle Behind the Story: An Aspiring Novelist’s Battle with Mental Health and Productivity
It’s not impossible to overcome, at least I hope it isn’t
It’s been a long time dream to write a novel. I’ve dreamt about this for as long as I can remember, but I never made the time to do it.
While still early in the process, I’ve gotten four chapters into the first draft. Not far I know, but it is at least in process — finally. This, however, isn’t the end of my issues; I’m struggling, and it has nothing to do with writing specifically.
So what’s the problem you might ask
I thought my anxiety over writing a novel had somewhat subsided, but I was wrong. Now I’m now plagued with a new problem that is completely ridiculous and purely in my head.
I have the fear that I won’t be able to both write the novel and write online, like here on Medium.
I know this is completely foolish, but it makes it no easier to overcome.
I have this idea in my head that I can only do one or the other, not both. Where this thinking comes from is a complete mystery to me.
It’s not like this is the first I’ve felt this way though.
