The Yin and Yang of Falling Down Rabbit Holes

And why I’m trying to fall more strategically

Sharon Pillai
ILLUMINATION

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Photo by Nathan McDine on Unsplash

“What do you want?” My ex once asked.

“I want what I hear in Joni Mitchell’s music,” I replied.

Intangible, ineffable wants are not easily filled by a trip to a restaurant or ordered on Amazon.

Although I’m not sure why, I know that scrolling around on the internet is massively addicting. Especially if you have, as I do, an addictive personality. My digital drugs of choice consist of so many things: animal videos, the news, news commentary, comedian podcasters, true crime, DIYers, and anyone who travels or lives in a forest. It is not in its entirety a bad thing.

As I become increasingly aware that this habitual behavior is slowly sucking the life out of me it’s also, paradoxically, the thing that could potentially save my life. I recently read an article about how sitting too much could lead to a cardiac arrest and while I already knew this I was reminded that I sit like a Buddha for a huge part of my day. Good for chasing after the white rabbit, bad for my heart.

This procrastinating proclivity (accompanied by a lot of sitting) sometimes brings me important knowledge as I fall down many rabbit holes. While held captive underground I pull up bits of information…

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Sharon Pillai
ILLUMINATION

I'd like to think I have wit and grit. I like the right hemisphere of my brain more than the left. I need the left though for the words.