Waiting for a Promotion…
Soon, the list of promotions will be released. I’ve been anticipating this moment, but there’s a tiny voice in my head wondering how I’ll react if I don’t get it.
Honestly? I feel like I’ve earned this promotion more than some of the others competing for the same role. I’ve put in late nights, skipped parties, and given my all without really worrying about the promotion — until a few days ago.
I worked this hard because I fear disappointing people, which drives me to put in extra hours, ensuring that the tasks assigned to me are completed on time. I didn’t take unnecessary sick leaves and never hesitated to take on challenges.
I know I should have a work-life balance, and I try to maintain a good life outside of work. But… I still put in more effort than needed. Sometimes, maybe because I am a woman among so many men, I fear that if I don’t work hard, my accomplishments will be undermined.
I’ve seen this happen before — the whispers and unfair judgments. “She only got promoted because she’s a girl,” they said as if her hard work and dedication meant nothing. Hearing those dismissive comments pushed me to put in even more hours, to prove beyond a doubt that my accomplishments stand on their own.
Now, if I don’t get this promotion, I know I’ll be disappointed. Maybe I’ll judge those who do get it and find reasons why they shouldn’t have. My pettiness will try to protect my emotions, and I just hope I can overcome it without judging myself.
For now, I’m choosing to focus on what I’ve accomplished, letting go of what I can’t control, and trusting that I’ve done my best.
