What Stories Does Your Ego Tell You?

Which of Them Are Worth Believing?

Sharon Pillai
ILLUMINATION

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Photo by Gaspar Uhas on Unsplash

Recently, I watched a roundtable for composers of this year’s Oscar nominations for best song. One songwriter was a particularly prolific composer in her 30s named Julia Michaels who’s worked as a professional songwriter since the age of 16. She’s written songs for film, television and well known pop stars, resulting in her winning various music awards throughout her career. But to watch her being praised for her accomplishments it was very clear that she had an absolute inability to receive the accolades bestowed upon her. She was admittedly adorable, as she blushed and squirmed and insisted on moving on to other topics. Anything to get the spotlight off her and to remain in the background where she apparently felt more at ease.

Another artist honed in on her, however, and reminded her that young girls are watching and she was a potential role model for some youngsters who might aspire to be like her. She attempted to bolster Julia’s confidence and redirect her discomfort toward acceptance of her apparent giftedness. This only made the discomfort worse because not only were her accomplishments being highlighted, now her psyche had a spotlight thrown on it. She did her best to weather the suggestions and compliments coming her way as she struggled to get everyone to talk about something else.

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Sharon Pillai
ILLUMINATION

I'd like to think I have wit and grit. I like the right hemisphere of my brain more than the left. I need the left though for the words.