TWO-SOME, THREE-SOME, FOUR-SOME, FIVE-SOME — LONELY?
Make 2 out of 1
Do you know the feeling of being exuberantly in love? Such a feeling of happiness deep inside that a smile constantly crosses your face — or even a grin ;)
You are just happy, free, elated, driven by an energy that was not so there before, which makes you take off!
Even more beautiful I feel the feeling AFTER the first rush of infatuation. Then a little piece comes into the still-fresh relationship. Finally, the heart racing stops when he sits next to you. You know that you can let yourself go, that you don’t need to pretend.
That’s what I enjoy the most!
My boyfriend and I strengthened our bond by getting married in the state, which at the time incidentally released him from his military obligation. Quite a romantic reason to get married. But it didn’t matter, love isn’t strengthened by marriage (not in our case anyway) and I’m glad to have that day behind me.
So much limelight, no thanks!
From 2 to 3 and 4 and 5
Over the years we increased our beloved togetherness:
Twice quite deliberately — and the number three sneaked cheekily behind.
For nothing in the world would we give away one of our 3 wild daughters again. I actually thought about writing that sentence, but I mean it just the same.
- Our 12-year-old has an extremely stubborn head and is considered a real tomboy who likes to say goodbye for hours without telling anyone. But she has heart and courage.
- Our 2nd daughter is now 4 years old and autistic. She has an unbelievable loving side in her, melts at every flower, and worries whether every person in this world has a mommy and a daddy. On the other hand, she reacts directly with aggression and violence when she feels provoked.
- Our 3rd little gold piece is also a girl (I had to listen to a lot of comments!). The little one has muddled through and is now 1 ½ year. With her all animals are called “Ma`s” and she loves balls in any shape, color, and size over everything.
Alright, so now we are 5 people!
Lonely together?
Over the years, and with the kids arriving and growing up, my husband and I have changed our daily routine. I notice it every time I go to bed at night, he might mutter a “good night” and then immediately fall asleep.
No more cuddling, no more talking. “How was your day?” Water under the bridge! We used to read to each other, sink ships or play 4 wins. He would ask me for advice and I would ask him.
Now he has his daily routine, and I have mine. I dare to say that I have more chaos, and I also know that I am right when he overhears a prank of our wild Dreier and reacts completely brash and overexcited. He just doesn’t know it the way I do….
Am I now jaded or can I simply assess the situation better?
Probably both :)
No matter which -SOME you are, just BE!
So our great love for two has made us feel less lonely in this world.
Thanks to our children, we are and feel no longer alone either.
And yet, sometimes I feel lonelier in bed with five than alone…. It doesn’t happen often, but it does happen.
When this sneaky feeling creeps up on me again, I now try to respond directly:
There’s something to be said for family, and for being alone — why think about it permanently?
There I live pure sarcasm and twist my thoughts for so long until they fit me into the stuff, finished!
Happiness to the one who knows both and has both, Basta!
