Loneliness VS. Being Alone

I am an only child but I was not a lonely one. I’ve always found strength in solitude, I’ve never turned to the presence of another for peace.

I’ve been my own best friend as well as my worst enemy. I’ve given myself some of the best advice I never followed and reacted on some of the worst impulses I’ve ever had.

I changed for me and went ahead and let others believe I did it for them. Relying on others is a winding road that eventually leads to disappointment. Dependence is a liability, independence a virtue to be treasured.

It’s not that I’m anti social, its that I came alone and i’m leaving that way. So let’s enjoy each others company before I eventually make my exit, fret not when i’m gone.

You wouldn’t believe me if I told you where I was going so I don’t imagine you’d be inclined to follow. Besides, i’m kind of hollow.

An empty vessel that is destined for the next level. Demented, ill end up getting rejected from heaven for sending threats to the devil.

I have no desire to be carried by another. I’ve always been more of the lead blocker front line type.

I appreciate your company but let me assure you, I don’t need it or revel in it. The last thing I depended on almost murdered me in my sleep.

As a kid I watched the others fight over toys I wasn’t interested in and played games I made up by myself. I don’t know if I’ve ever found as much joy as I did in that in anything I've ever done since, with the exception of maybe this.

It was my game, my rules and I never lost. The better man always won. I played well with others and worked in groups when asked to do so.

Impatiently waiting for the moment I would once again be allowed to just go play on my own. On my own time and in my own manner, my game.

Perhaps you hear all of this and conclude I’m some sort of sad. Let me reassure you, nothing could be further from the truth. I’m in good company today. So if you see me walking along alone and somehow interpret that as sad well i’m sorry to hear that.

Because I may be alone but I don’t even know the definition of lonely.