No one is going to teach you

Eyes were getting wet with too much concentration on screen ahead. It’s been almost two weeks and I am sitting all day home, doing some little bit of blogging and mostly spending all day on Instagram , Quora and Medium. All the day is spent by reading and watching all the stuff on those sites. It’s nothing bad in few contexts, but when you exceed the certain limit of addiction it really hurts, later on. Last few weeks haven’t been up to my expectations and were kind of worse. I dropped out of engineering to devote more time for my love of blogging and reading. I am just figuring out to any particular course that can provide me ample space for my passion. But dropping out was never easy. Whole year was wiped away. A lot of money was dumped. And what really hurts is, my family considers me a sort of loser who doesn’t wants to do hard work. It really hurts, but it’s just matter of time when they will understand me. So from last few weeks I am glued inside my house; doing nothing. Just reading some stuff and never implementing it.

I have read hundreds of articles depicting various ways to manage time properly, 10–20–30 ways to move ahead in life, tools for carrying on various tasks and so many other things. But I did nothing. Nothing at all. Every other day I woke up, read the to do lists and pushed them ahead. From morning to noon and from noon to night. Thus, it was never completed. Leave out the probability of completing, I did not even try to start many of those. From last two weeks I have been trying to provide me various muses to motivate myself, but still, doing nothing.

But I could not hold back any more during last two days. I recently read Jon westenberg few articles and they actually pumped me up. They made me get out of my bed and do something. Success does not always comes with some sort of luck. It mostly requires high amount of hard work and a lot of perseverance. So why to get depressed after just working for few weeks or few months, why not to continue working till I achieve my goal. May be I won’t come any closer to target in allotted time, but one day, surely I will double my target and become best in my field.

These two weeks have taught me ample things to be remembered for lifetime. They weren’t any sort of struggles in terms of financial condition or some heartbreaking rejection. But they taught me well. I realized I can’t be happy just by reading all day without any work. I can’t always get through the world of novels , forgetting this beautiful world. Sometimes, even the most stagnant situation teaches you something or another. Now I realize that reading always makes and made me happy, but it was always dependent on situations. When I did some hard work all day long and started reading in the night, I did not feel scarcity of sleep. I enjoyed much more than I enjoy by sitting all day home and doing nothing. It was my one of the gateway to get out of this world and relax in my own world.

So today is my first day. Not only first day, it’s my first task. It’s morning, here in India, and I am already on schedule. I woke up according to the scheduled time and started few minutes earlier to the prescribed time for this blog post. I am on schedule and it feels great to perform on time.