The Potential To Be You

“I wanted everything because I didn’t want anything enough.” — Lang Leav

I have always wondered why we have to be only one thing, a doctor, a writer, an actor, an engineer, a programmer, anything but only one thing.

Artist, Mathematician, Writer, and Inventor Leonardo Da Vinci, when one man can be so much, why would you be only one thing.

As a child I was fascinated by space, like every other kid, I asked my parents to buy me books, went on school trips to planetariums, I use to watch every program on television related to space, our universe.

Then in school, I was interested in our history, politics, I read news paper every day, I followed news channels, talk shows, debates, and had debates with my father. It was absolutely fun. I found history and political science fun.

Years passed. I was in college now. Physics was everything to me then, it was my passion, everything is an atom. I saw everything in the grand scheme of things, I followed every new discovery with intent enthusiasm, some scientist discovered a new theory about dark matter, I need to know that. I was having the time of my life studying Quantum mechanics and Theoretical Physics. I am a graduated engineer now.

In the last year of my college life, social media was booming, it was year 2015, I wanted to learn more, I took up courses on social media marketing, social media for organizations,and Analytics. I worked with a start up while still being in college,I landed a job for myself immediately after graduation.

Now after a year of that job,I was bored with life,I need change,I hated this routine,sitting by the window of my office,staring at the screen in front of me,I was restrained physically,but my mind knows no bounds,I was flying in my head,when all I was doing is sitting at the desk.

“Change is rarely straightforward….Sometimes it’s as complicated as chaos theory and as slow as evolution.Even things that seem to happen suddenly arise from deep roots in the past or from long-dormant seeds.” — Solnit

If I don’t change now,I will hate myself for the rest of my life. I accepted who I was and took the first step to change.I took every help possible,my family,friends,books and dead philosophers who don’t know how much help they have been with their crazy theories.

I took up a self awareness challenge.I learned my habits,my cues,what made me happy,what made me sad,what do I fear and why I fear them.I relearned many habits,I have reinvented myself habit by habit.I started to love myself,not just my body,my strengths or my accomplishments, but the self.I discovered a gateway to happiness,I discovered self-esteem.I fell in love with myself,I know that sounds too cliche,but that’s the truth.

“I’ve reinvented myself once.And I can do it again.” — Brandon Stanton

That’s what I like about humans,we have the ability to change,change for the better or for worse,your mind is trainable and you are adaptable.

I learned to be me and discovered I have the potential to be me or more than me.You can be much more than your job,your education or your team,your organization.Once I learned that I can be anything I wanted,I never stopped,I took up writing,studying philosophy,and many more challenges that I worked through.

Maybe next time I could tell you why I walked 1.6 km for a scoop of ice cream that I wanted to eat a month ago.

Until the next post amigos.

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