When It Is Good To Be Selfish…

I enjoy being selfish!! Checklist: hubby sorted, kids sorted, me ehh???

As my daughter ran off on an adventure with her brother somewhere in the house, I realised it was time to be selfish. I ever so quietly closed my door and locked it. We grew up recently and that meant we bought a house that has locks on every door. As scary as that decision was, I am ever so thankful that we made it. The house that we were renting as most rented houses, had no locks and the doors never really closed properly. So yes, I am tahnkful for a door that can lock. As soon as I was alone I realised I did not know what to do with myself. since I was fresh from a shower I decided not to throw on clothes like I normally do. I instead sat on the bed and cooled off. HEAVENLY! I took a moment to notice my surroundings and to enjoy the gentle breeze that was blowing through my grey lace curtain, which by the way took me so long to find. I was able to take it its beauty and enjoy my patch of grass outside that I had been longing for. I was about to enjoy the bouncing rays off my window when my very assertive four year old banged on my door. She went on to tell me in her very stern voice that I must open the door, right this moment! I must admit I felt a tinge of guilt but reason tapped me on my shoulder and reminded me that the kids are fine. It also reminded me that there was another adult in the house and that I was well within my rights to get dressed alone in my room.

Of course the knocking continued…

When my daughter realised that she was unsuccessful she went and got reinforcements in the form of her twenty three month old little brother. So they then began this melodious screaming and shouting and lets not forget the threatening pleas of “ Mommy please open the door! if you do not open the door, you will go to the naughty corner!” Still they were unsuccessful because I was clutching on to my calm ever so tightly. My very resourceful daughter swiftly abandoned her reinforcement and went on to go onto my patch of grass and stand outside my window and scream, “Mom,I know you are in there, if you come out I will give you a sweet.” That right there is a tenacious little girl and I let go and unlocked the door. As soon as the door was unlocked they rushed in and rushed back out. They just wanted to make sure that I was ok and that my door stays unlocked. I received the message loud and clear from my son who when they were rushing out, he turned around to look at me as if to say, “I am watching you, do not lock that door!” I was in hysterics from these two little amazings. They see nothing wrong with wanting every inch of you, in fact they feel entitled to it. I guess it is not their fault because ever since they implanted in my womb they have made it very clear who is boss.

As I sit on my patio,( yes I have a patio heeheehee)I am still chuckling to myself at the measures my kids will go to.

I am also very proud of myself! While I was ALONE in my room hahaha I was able to see the progress I have made in regards to my body. I have been on a weightloss journey for the past six months and I was able to see that the hard work/suffering was beginning to pay off. I actually do not remember the last time I honoured this shell that houses me. So often we focus on what we do not like about it but today I gave it a young hi five and a standing ovation! It is resilient and strong and is every bit as tenacious as my four year old daughter. so yay!!

We have heard the saying so many times, “We need to stop and smell the roses”. I am so guilty of not taking that time. Another reason I am thankful for growing up is that we may be on an involuntary bread and water diet because it is so expensive to buy a house, we adleast have the choice to either walk on the grass or sit on the patio. yay! It has helped me to be grateful in whatever season I find myself in and it has definetely made the ride of life more pleasant. So I urge you out there to take that selfish moment because it may seem selfish at the time but in the long run it is the most unselfish thing you can do for yourself and your loved ones. What that means is that you will be present and calm so enjoy!!