Accepting Death

Finding freedom meant releasing the fear

Kayla Douglas
Jul 26 · 3 min read
Photo by Filipe Dos Santos Mendes on Unsplash

Ace passed away. We buried him in the backyard and throughout the day we talked about what a great cat he was. We also talked about the concept of death.

I just accept that death is part of the cycle of life, and there is no point in being afraid of it.

Why do I need to be afraid of dying?

“You need to ‘life coach’ yourself into caring, Kayla,” my mom stated. “Everyone’s afraid of dying.”

But the point is, when I cared, life was hard. I worried. I had anxiety. I avoided doing things because I thought about the chance my life could end early or tragically. Since I stopped being afraid, I am able to let go and actually live! I experience true freedom.


Living Life Without Fear

During that time, I did attempt suicide. So I do know what it is like to really want to die. That is nothing like the feeling I have now. I am not even apathetic or despondent; I am happy and I love life! I just accept that death is part of the cycle of life, and there is no point in being afraid of it.

Learning to Live

Chelsea Marie explains this better than I can in very few words here:

Since I left the states, I have learned to forge my own path and really find freedom. The point is, I’ve come to a place of acceptance. I accept that life is temporary and I’m working hard to make every single day count.

Real Independence

In my mind, real independence is knowing that I lived life my way.

When I Die…

This is a response to the Freedom — July Writing Prompt by Daphelba DeBeauvoir in the publication inkMend.

inkMend

inkMend is a writer’s safe space on Medium to express experience with pain and write to heal from trauma. Inspired fiction, poetry, and non-fiction/memoir welcome.

Thanks to Leah J. 🕊

Kayla Douglas

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Life Coach, author, lifelong learner, travel enthusiast, narcolepsy advocate, living in Myanmar, she/her https://www.kaylamdouglas.com

inkMend

inkMend

inkMend is a writer’s safe space on Medium to express experience with pain and write to heal from trauma. Inspired fiction, poetry, and non-fiction/memoir welcome.

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