The Woman Who Changed Her Bones
A story about personal transformation and life’s challenges
Joan was thinking inside the large bathtub filled with hot water, the only thing emerging was her head. She couldn’t help from observing the lineaments of her body. How everything looked different from that perspective! Underwater is a different world of deep silence and tranquility mixed together.
She knew that something changed the way she felt, but she couldn’t put a finger there to identify the problem just yet.
So, she had to decide if her state of mind was one coming from sadness, or anxiety and unexplainable fear.
Her father left in her the sense of what is right from wrong, yet, he was not able to give the family a clear way to see it. He knew how he wanted to live, and how he wanted everyone else to live under his roof; he was very clear about values. Yet, he was a man of expectations, — even though temptations appeared to make him weak and unclear with time — .
He became less clear and loyal to his own values as time went by, and this became transparent and hurtful to her and the rest of the family.
Confusion was the sign that her life was often less clear than the day before… Depression was the sign that she should give up right where she was but, still, there was one whisper in her mind left…
Something was suggesting from within that there is a possibility, there is a way out of confusion. Her desire to detach from all, — to start a new life under her own rules — , was the new forming thought, the new beginning. Even though changing perspective was not too difficult, yet, it was hard to try new models. Her dad always meant a great deal to her for the way he was, — as he was, period — .
She was hoping that with time, she could feel transparent and clear to know with confidence what to think.
From the old faucet, the water was dripping with perfect punctuality, tic-tac, tic-tac, tic-tac,… Every drop was time going by — if not to ruin what she became — , it was to make her a new person offering a new idea to the way she wanted to live.
What was most difficult at that moment, was the fact that she had to make the first step out of depression.
a shift took place as soon as she realized that to be whole, she only needed herself and no one else.
It was clear then, that the first hour in the tub created a bundle of confusion mixt to bitter feelings of the past.
Her body looked so much different underwater! So her emotions, but, a shift took place as soon as she realized that to be whole, she only needed herself and no one else. Indeed, there was absolutely nothing she needed to do, nor think at all. This alone gave her peace, tranquility, and new harmony.
Water was everything she needed to reinvent herself and her life. She wanted to look like water and less like something more. Her joy was only to feel the first sparkle towards any kind of inspiration coming from water. That alone should have had the power to help her change her bones.
