Back There

BFoundAPen
Aug 31, 2018 · 1 min read

I don’t want to go back there
Back there
Back to being left on read
Words unsaid
Spilling out -
All over lined pages your eyes will never touch

Back there
Where
Hours felt like years
And days pretended to be decades
I dedicate
Notebook after notebook
Fountains of ink
Enough thoughts to sink

I don’t want to go
Where
Heart emoji lives beside your name
Even though you never felt the same
Counting sleep pills until I’m numb
Lying to myself, saying you’re the only one

How many days has it been?
I don’t know
I’m scared to count
I’m scared of the amount
Of pain
Of the tear stains
I just got out

I don’t want to go back there
There
Where mental warfare rages on

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Intimately Intricate

Where an exploration of the Intricacies of Intimacy can be found. One piece at a time… Come join us.

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